When we embarked on FET #2 I decided it was either going to work and we would get our take home baby, or it would be a BFN from the start. I just wasn’t going to have another chemical pregnancy. It was not an option. But because of our past history, I was afraid to test. I was afraid to see 2 lines, because I know that doesn’t mean anything other than something successfully implanted. I didn’t know if I would be able to stand the wait until Saturday when we would have the blood test.
But I caved, and I tested. I had about 10 HPTs at home, and figured I would just use them all (because as previously mentioned–I have a weird addiction to peeing on sticks). The earliest I tested with our first IVF was 6dp5dt and with our FET it was 7dp5dt (remember the OPK experiement? That was the first day I got a +OPK). And those were both positive. This time I decided, what the heck. I’ll test even earlier, just for fun.
The evening of 4dp5dt there was a very very faint shadow on the HPT. I wouldn’t call it a line, but a negative test is so very stark white, that I knew it was something. And on the morning of 5dp5dt, there were definitely two lines. Faint, but that was a line and not a shadow.
I expected to be nervous. I expected to be anxious. I did not expect to be excited. But I was, and I still am. It doesn’t matter what happens right now. Today I am pregnant, and I’m going to enjoy today. Worrying won’t help, and besides, I’ve already decided that this is going to work.
The waiting game continues though. So how am I doing on my list?
give up caffeine
- finish baby gift #1–so close
- figure out baby gifts #2 and beyond
- submit forms for acupuncture reimbursement–umm… where did I put that form?
plant my garden
finish the two socks I am currently knitting–sock #2 is not my favorite fix the seat cushions for the dining room table
- make the shade for the kitchen (ala Pinterest)
- organize my recipes and print new cookbook pages
clean the bathroom
- find an article for journal club–would you rather hear about metformin as an adjunctive treatment for thyroid cancer or CPAP as a treatment for the metabolic syndrome? Because these are the most interesting articles I can find.
plan next week’s dinners
make something delicious for breakfast one weekend
get a pedicure